Depression is hitting me again. I've fought it for the last 3 years but this time it's relentless. First it was nudging me • reminding me of the gloomy weather, how I don't have a group of friends to call on when I need to, telling me that I won't be able to fight this … Continue reading It’s back.
I'm writing here because I’m afraid to fall asleep. My dog (Mija, 1.5 years old) got spayed yesterday morning (11-20-19) and her recovery hasn't been the easiest. The procedure went well, she's been super out of it, but it seems like she has no control over her own body right now. I picked her from … Continue reading (Dog) Mom-duty.
I'm writing to test out all of the new supplies I just got in from Amazon this afternoon. So far, as I begin this post, I've sat here for nearly 5 minutes with them all; I'm in love. **I want to first put here that none of these are ads, nor was I paid to … Continue reading New Office Supplies!
I began writing a post back on June 9th... that's nearly 2 months ago. I hate going through these GIANT gaps without writing. But it does give me quite a bit to talk about. Especially lately; there's been a lot of positive changes. ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** Vacation My … Continue reading Life Update.
If you've followed my previous blogs throughout the past few years you'd know that I don't vacation often. Honestly, the last time I could say I took a vacation was October of 2017; nearly two whole years ago. Buttttt, as of today my boyfriend and I booked a flight to New Orleans, Louisiana for 5 … Continue reading Catch-Up & Vacation.
A lot has gone on since I last wrote. A lot. Most importantly... I'm good. I feel good, am doing well, I look good (yeah, I said it) and life is good. Even my therapist told me that in all the time that she's known me -- 2.5 years -- that I'm the happiest she's … Continue reading The Sun.
I've been struggling a lot lately with accepting my life the way it is right now and understanding that a lot of it is temporary. I've been struggling with several relationships and being able to talk to others about how I feel. Dealing with expectations, judgement, "what should be", "traditional lifestyles" and the voices of … Continue reading Depression and Anxiety.
Tonight I struggle to tell you how you make me feel, just like every other day that I've conversed with you. You're fragile. There's only so much I can say to you without you twisting my words and making me feel guilty. But we're both adults. We should know how to handle relationships now, shouldn't … Continue reading Relationships.
I knew you years ago. We went well together; I knew exactly how you worked. I knew your rhythm, how the ebbs and flows went, I understood you. We spent years apart. Not your fault nor mine. I needed to learn myself before indulging in you again. I couldn't find a way to connect with … Continue reading Writing.
I sit alone in a sea of sheets I've been here before; both alone and with you The sheets are different now; colder. The ice inside of me is so powerful that it makes this queen-sized bed a glacier I work to bring the glacier sun: exercise, writing, socialization… what more does it need? It … Continue reading Feelings.