Depression is hitting me again. I've fought it for the last 3 years but this time it's relentless. First it was nudging me • reminding me of the gloomy weather, how I don't have a group of friends to call on when I need to, telling me that I won't be able to fight this … Continue reading It’s back.
I began writing a post back on June 9th... that's nearly 2 months ago. I hate going through these GIANT gaps without writing. But it does give me quite a bit to talk about. Especially lately; there's been a lot of positive changes. ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** Vacation My … Continue reading Life Update.
If you've followed my previous blogs throughout the past few years you'd know that I don't vacation often. Honestly, the last time I could say I took a vacation was October of 2017; nearly two whole years ago. Buttttt, as of today my boyfriend and I booked a flight to New Orleans, Louisiana for 5 … Continue reading Catch-Up & Vacation.
I've been struggling a lot lately with accepting my life the way it is right now and understanding that a lot of it is temporary. I've been struggling with several relationships and being able to talk to others about how I feel. Dealing with expectations, judgement, "what should be", "traditional lifestyles" and the voices of … Continue reading Depression and Anxiety.
I sit alone in a sea of sheets I've been here before; both alone and with you The sheets are different now; colder. The ice inside of me is so powerful that it makes this queen-sized bed a glacier I work to bring the glacier sun: exercise, writing, socialization… what more does it need? It … Continue reading Feelings.
I've stared at this blank screen for eternity.I've done nothing productive today but brush my teeth.I had plans; gym, mani / pedi, coffee, some sushi -- not exactly in that order but you get it. Did I do any of it? Nope. Not one. I woke later than I'm used to, but early enough to … Continue reading A Day of Nothing.
Lately I've been having both good and bad days. I don't know when or why they change from one to the other, I just noticed that they have and it's sudden. For instance, today: this morning I woke to take my dog out, had a nice and filling breakfast, grabbed a coffee and blared music … Continue reading Emotional Roller Coaster.
I got my inspiration to write while I was waiting in the car dealership for my oil change to finish up. I brought my personal journal along that I've had since November of 2015, knowing that the oil change would take a decent amount of time. As I opened it to write, I noticed that … Continue reading Missing Myself.
I'm officially 26 years old. My birthday was on the 25th of January. This year was a lot of things. In summary, here's how it all went down:- January I interviewed for a new job out-of-state and turned 25.- In February I packed up my belongings and moved from Delaware to Virginia, leaving my boyfriend … Continue reading Another Year.
I can't remember the last time I made a New Year Resolution, I might have been 11 or 12 years old. But my aunt died in 2004 right before Christmas and my mindset changed. Holidays have never been the same. Something turned that fun let's-take-this-new-year-to-make-some-good-changes into something so pointless and mundane. I didn't want to … Continue reading Hello, 2019.