Depression is hitting me again. I've fought it for the last 3 years but this time it's relentless. First it was nudging me • reminding me of the gloomy weather, how I don't have a group of friends to call on when I need to, telling me that I won't be able to fight this … Continue reading It’s back.
I began writing a post back on June 9th... that's nearly 2 months ago. I hate going through these GIANT gaps without writing. But it does give me quite a bit to talk about. Especially lately; there's been a lot of positive changes. ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** Vacation My … Continue reading Life Update.
If you've followed my previous blogs throughout the past few years you'd know that I don't vacation often. Honestly, the last time I could say I took a vacation was October of 2017; nearly two whole years ago. Buttttt, as of today my boyfriend and I booked a flight to New Orleans, Louisiana for 5 … Continue reading Catch-Up & Vacation.
A lot has gone on since I last wrote. A lot. Most importantly... I'm good. I feel good, am doing well, I look good (yeah, I said it) and life is good. Even my therapist told me that in all the time that she's known me -- 2.5 years -- that I'm the happiest she's … Continue reading The Sun.
I've been struggling a lot lately with accepting my life the way it is right now and understanding that a lot of it is temporary. I've been struggling with several relationships and being able to talk to others about how I feel. Dealing with expectations, judgement, "what should be", "traditional lifestyles" and the voices of … Continue reading Depression and Anxiety.
Tonight I struggle to tell you how you make me feel, just like every other day that I've conversed with you. You're fragile. There's only so much I can say to you without you twisting my words and making me feel guilty. But we're both adults. We should know how to handle relationships now, shouldn't … Continue reading Relationships.
I sit alone in a sea of sheets I've been here before; both alone and with you The sheets are different now; colder. The ice inside of me is so powerful that it makes this queen-sized bed a glacier I work to bring the glacier sun: exercise, writing, socialization… what more does it need? It … Continue reading Feelings.
I've stared at this blank screen for eternity.I've done nothing productive today but brush my teeth.I had plans; gym, mani / pedi, coffee, some sushi -- not exactly in that order but you get it. Did I do any of it? Nope. Not one. I woke later than I'm used to, but early enough to … Continue reading A Day of Nothing.
Lately I've been having both good and bad days. I don't know when or why they change from one to the other, I just noticed that they have and it's sudden. For instance, today: this morning I woke to take my dog out, had a nice and filling breakfast, grabbed a coffee and blared music … Continue reading Emotional Roller Coaster.
I got my inspiration to write while I was waiting in the car dealership for my oil change to finish up. I brought my personal journal along that I've had since November of 2015, knowing that the oil change would take a decent amount of time. As I opened it to write, I noticed that … Continue reading Missing Myself.